Big hug to all of those who have/had a shitty mom and is having a tough time today

[Jarqui]

12. Had a great Dad. My mother was difficult.

She was fine with my sisters. But kind of had it in for my brother and I.

My older brother was soft-hearted and kind. He took it kind of hard. I was different in that I would fight back - mostly to protect him.

I chalk it up to some kind of mental illness. She had mental troubles since we were little kids.

So I'm not bitter. Can't fault someone for being sick.

But I can never feel close or the same way about her as I did my father.

I did the obligation thing today - delivered a card and flowers. She was sleeping. Didn't see her and it did not phase me. It was kind of "normal".

A lot of days like this are not fun. They can dig up unpleasant stuff that would probably be better off buried. (EDIT: bad choice of words - no, I do not wish she was dead)