Big hug to all of those who have/had a shitty mom and is having a tough time today

[Mountain Mule]

20. My mother was a cold blooded monster!

She was emotionally warped - probably a narcissist or some other profound personality disorder. She made my life (and my Dad's) a living hell. I thought I was supposed to love her because she was my Mom. But how can you love someone who abandoned you constantly when you were a helpless child, and told you stuff like "If people knew what you were really like, they'd despise you." After I became disabled and was too sick to fight back, she managed to pull off a court maneuver that allowed her to steal the home that I had inherited from my Dad and then she had me put out on the street. People will say to me that I should feel sorry for her because she must have been really abused as a child to turn into such a dreadful human being. But my aunts and uncle on her side of the family turned out just fine. Whatever my Mom may or may not have endured in her childhood, I do know that she made mine truly awful. It took all I had as an adult not to become a permanent mental wreck thanks to the harsh treatment she so freely dished out. I'd like to somehow come to terms with her before I leave this world myself (she has already passed - I didn't shed a tear), but I wonder if I ever will. My heart goes out to you and everyone else who had a "mother" who was nothing of the sort - mine was anything but a loving parent - hating yes, loving no.