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[ihas2stinkyfeet]

seems kinda quiet in here. w so much stressful shit going on, i dont want to worry about you all too.

me, i have been mostly happy, tho quite sick. i had a ct scan yesterday to see if we can figure out why i have lost so much weight, 20 lbs since dec, and accelerating, and feel so tired.
it has been stressful here. so used to having my block to myself all day while everyone is at work, and now they are in my face. and i am in theirs.
feeling shitty is making me cranky af and my impulse control is shot to hell.
i dont regret some of it, like buying myself a few too many bday presents. you only turn 66 once, and most of what i got was not a lot of money.
but not getting along w folks is hard. and i cant find it to apologize to people who actually did shit they ought to be called out for.

but i am coping and that feels pretty good. it has been a tough year in the garden, but progress has been made on a lot of fronts. hoping for a little indian summer. then some cold weather to discourage the maskholes.

so check in peeps.