My beloved baby dog is gone.

[PearliePoo2]

5. I'm still grieving the loss of my beautiful Border Collie. It will be 2 years in January.

She was 15 and 1/2 years old. She was the love of my life just as your baby is. My user name is a tribute to her (Pearl)
Like you, I kept looking for her, I see the little paths she had worn in the grass to her favorite spots. I would automatically call out her name.

My chest literally HURT. Heartbreak is a real thing. Tears just come out of nowhere when you least expect it.
I'm feeling for you so much and your beloved pup.

I have Pearl's ashes in a little urn here on my desk. I talk to her and I tell her I love her.

I have another Border Collie puppy now (her name is Ryn) I was too damn lonely not to have the company of a dog in my life.

A new puppy and just the passage of time helps ease the pain.
Wishing you the best and feeling your loss and heartache. Good luck to you in your healing.