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vercetti2021

(10,156 posts) Sun Sep 18, 2022, 01:53 PM Sep 2022

Riley went to rainbow bridge [View all]

I failed him. I let him suffer and die thinking removing his cancer was the right thing to do. I let him suffer for two days. I tried everything I could. High medications and everything to ensure he wouldn't suffer while recovering. He had a seizure this morning and the vet was closed. I tried to monitor him as closely as possible. But he just succumbed and took his last breath. I absolutely fucking hate myself for this and never forgiving myself for this. This was my fault. I ended his life sooner than expected. I'm so sorry Riley. I'm sorry.

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Riley went to rainbow bridge [View all] vercetti2021 Sep 2022 OP

I am so sorry. It's not your fault. Please don't blame yourself MerryHolidays Sep 2022 #1

Its mine vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #19

Oh honey you are not to blame! redwitch Sep 2022 #2

I just can't vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #58

My heart is with you. Silver Gaia Sep 2022 #3

You did your best. None of us including your Tetrachloride Sep 2022 #4

I'm so sorry, vercetti2021. femmedem Sep 2022 #5

Oh, god, I know how you feel. I'm so sorry for both you and Riley. Biophilic Sep 2022 #6

You did the best you could based on the available evidence Farmer-Rick Sep 2022 #7

There are so many things we can't control - please don't blame yourself!! Siwsan Sep 2022 #8

So sorry MacKasey Sep 2022 #9

You did the very best you could for him with the info & resources avail to you. SheltieLover Sep 2022 #10

I'm broken vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #14

All cats die eventually. raging moderate Sep 2022 #45

Dog vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #46

Oh, sorry. Riley surely knew you were trying to help him. raging moderate Sep 2022 #51

I am so sorry for your loss LetMyPeopleVote Sep 2022 #11

I tried vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #64

I'm very sorry for your loss. There must have been something else that the vet sinkingfeeling Sep 2022 #12

I don't know vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #21

So sorry for your loss..sounds like you had a plan, and it failed. Not your fault PortTack Sep 2022 #13

I failed him vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #15

With cancer, if you didn't do surgery, it would have spread. LisaL Sep 2022 #37

I'm so sorry. barbtries Sep 2022 #16

I'm sorry for your loss. Please don't blame yourself; brer cat Sep 2022 #17

As a former nurse, I know human patients also have variable outcomes after surgery, even for Ziggysmom Sep 2022 #18

Should have consider the options vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #20

We can find a reason to blame ourselves no matter what we do... Earthrise Sep 2022 #22

I don't wanna use facebook for it vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #60

Please don't think it was your fault. You did everything possible badhair77 Sep 2022 #23

Cancer or pain vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #28

The cancer may have weakened him badhair77 Sep 2022 #31

You did what you thought was best for him. You could not have known the outcome CousinIT Sep 2022 #24

I feel I could have done better vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #27

If you did the wrong thing ... Jeebo Sep 2022 #25

Oh my sweet friend, vercetti UpInArms Sep 2022 #26

Yeah vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #61

I've been where you are. Here is some advice. rockbluff botanist Sep 2022 #29

If it were me? vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #62

This message was self-deleted by its author rockbluff botanist Sep 2022 #30

Please do not blame yourself. murielm99 Sep 2022 #32

I do vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #33

He is not suffering anymore. LisaL Sep 2022 #36

I know he isn't vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #56

I'm soooo sorry.... did the best you could for him. alittlelark Sep 2022 #34

It's not your fault. LisaL Sep 2022 #35

I'm so sorry for your loss cate94 Sep 2022 #38

Feels like I did vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #59

Just a little while ago, i was telling my friends of Tetrachloride Sep 2022 #39

I am sure Riley does not think it is your fault. I am so sorry. LoisB Sep 2022 #40

You did what you had to do, you tried to help him! Am so very sorry, I know it will take time to secondwind Sep 2022 #41

It's hard to see what might have happened MadameButterfly Sep 2022 #42

Grief is long lasting with me vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #52

Everyone here has said it much more eloquently than I can... Mozeltov Cocktail Sep 2022 #43

ask Riley to forgive you, and you know he will, cause that's what dogs do. ❤️ IcyPeas Sep 2022 #44

I hope he knows vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #47

that's okay, we are all sending you lots of love IcyPeas Sep 2022 #49

I hope vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #63

So sorry... You were there for him ramapo Sep 2022 #48

I'm so sorry vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #57

Oh, hon, it will take a long time before you forgive yourself, slightlv Sep 2022 #50

I don't know if I will vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #55

Riley is a great name. Tetrachloride Sep 2022 #53

ASCPA named him vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #54

How are you doing? niyad Sep 2022 #65

Still not very good vercetti2021 Sep 2022 #66

I can only imagine how truly difficult this is. But please know that you niyad Sep 2022 #67

So sorry. Cancer is a monstrous thing. I_UndergroundPanther Sep 2022 #68