Atheists & Agnostics

Evoman

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48. I'm sorry that you had so much pain you wanted to check out.

Sat Sep 13, 2014, 05:55 AM

Sep 2014

Emotional pain can be just as bad as physical pain. I get it. I feel a lot of guilt for traumatizing my wife and family. I begged them to kill me. The pain was so overwhelming I order them to kill me. If my wife had a means to kill me she might have, but it would have killed her to and that's something I find it had for me to forgive myself for.

Fortunately, I don't really want to die because I do love life... It's just impossible to love it when you are bent over puking because the pain of cramps is so egregious.

Though I'm no religious, not do I think there is a reason for my pain besides "life can suck", I wish you nothing but the best in dealing with your own pain.

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I almost died last week. [View all] Evoman Sep 2014 OP

Sorry you had to go through that. Hissyspit Sep 2014 #1

Apparently there is some reason that you survived your latest ordeal. TexasTowelie Sep 2014 #2

Glad you didn't succeed! IdaBriggs Sep 2014 #8

there really is no plan, no reason, no divine intervention Warren Stupidity Sep 2014 #15

Utterly shameless. enki23 Sep 2014 #19

Vultures for Jesus, HA! Exultant Democracy Sep 2014 #33

That wasn't my intention. TexasTowelie Sep 2014 #38

"then maybe you should consider your recovery as divine intervention" WORST. ADVICE. EVER. cleanhippie Sep 2014 #20

Thanks for making my day. TexasTowelie Sep 2014 #28

Uhm, ok. cleanhippie Sep 2014 #29

Hi, Towelie. LiberalAndProud Sep 2014 #31

Thank you and in the future I'll avoid doing any proselytizing. TexasTowelie Sep 2014 #36

I'm glad you survived, TT Arugula Latte Sep 2014 #26

Thank you. TexasTowelie Sep 2014 #35

Well, I guess technically. Arugula Latte Sep 2014 #42

I'm glad you didn't succeed. beam me up scottie Sep 2014 #32

I am sorry that you felt life wasn't worth living, Curmudgeoness Sep 2014 #41

I'm sorry that you had so much pain you wanted to check out. Evoman Sep 2014 #48

I can't imagine what you went through, but... TreasonousBastard Sep 2014 #3

I'm glad you're toughing this out. LiberalAndProud Sep 2014 #4

I want you to get out of there ASAP too, Evoman ReRe Sep 2014 #5

My wife went through chemo and cancer 13 years ago. She said it sucked, too. DFW Sep 2014 #6

i'm glad you pulled through barbtries Sep 2014 #7

Glad things are better now. IdaBriggs Sep 2014 #9

I am REALLY sorry you had to go through this LeftishBrit Sep 2014 #10

Am there. raven mad Sep 2014 #11

I love to hear stories like yours. You came roaring back into the reality of life. BlueJazz Sep 2014 #12

I'm a fellow sufferer of kidney stones. I've often said that none of the pain I've been through Evoman Sep 2014 #49

I had Chemo 15 years ago- KrazyinKS Sep 2014 #13

I hope you continue to get stronger and healthier, Evoman. Granny M Sep 2014 #14

Just remember that there is joy as well as suffering. Warren Stupidity Sep 2014 #16

Holy hell Evoman. progressoid Sep 2014 #17

You are one hella tough guy, Evo. trotsky Sep 2014 #18

Way to hang in there, Evoman. Stay strong. cleanhippie Sep 2014 #21

What an ordeal! AlbertCat Sep 2014 #22

Great to see you! JNelson6563 Sep 2014 #23

Congratulations on surviving! onager Sep 2014 #24

I'm so glad you survived! frogmarch Sep 2014 #25

You are a Superstar at that hospital. Arugula Latte Sep 2014 #27

I am. Evoman Sep 2014 #47

That's great. Arugula Latte Sep 2014 #51

:) Duppers Sep 2014 #63

You survived and the world is a better place for it. beam me up scottie Sep 2014 #30

Glad you made it. Exultant Democracy Sep 2014 #34

Glad you got through that - I hope you don't get any time feeling as bad as that again muriel_volestrangler Sep 2014 #37

Damn, you're a tough bastard EvolveOrConvolve Sep 2014 #39

I cannot imagine that much pain and suffering. Curmudgeoness Sep 2014 #40

take care. what a tough road. it is heroic to last through this in my book roguevalley Sep 2014 #43

Hang in there Gelliebeans Sep 2014 #44

Glad you're still here... awoke_in_2003 Sep 2014 #45

No divine inspiration.. Evoman Sep 2014 #46

You're home, then? Yay! LiberalAndProud Sep 2014 #52

No need to get worked up about it anymore. beam me up scottie Sep 2014 #53

I am glad your are back... rexcat Sep 2014 #50

I'm really glad that you pulled through deucemagnet Sep 2014 #54

Hope you're feeling stronger now. PassingFair Sep 2014 #55

Lucky for me, my wife made a deal with the universe that if I survived, I would finally get the PS4 Evoman Sep 2014 #56

How you doin'? LiberalAndProud Sep 2014 #57

I'm okay Evoman Sep 2014 #58

Mercy! I hope you can tap into whatever reservoirs remain to make it through. LiberalAndProud Sep 2014 #60

How did it go? LiberalAndProud Sep 2014 #62

Hope you continue to feel better kdmorris Sep 2014 #59

Hope you continue to get better! Manifestor_of_Light Sep 2014 #61