OldBaldy1701E
OldBaldy1701E's JournalWho here has had to attend a wedding knowing it is going to be... crazy...
So, the owner of our townhouse is getting married to his beau. My hubby and I (who have lived here for almost a decade, moved here to live with this guy, constantly supported him by telling him that he would find someone one day, kept his rickety townhouse from completely falling apart and even flirted with total financial ruin trying to act like a rich person for him) have no part in the ceremony. I am surprised they invited us. It is a long story and I don't want to get into it now. Suffice to say, we were duped and now we are paying the price of moving to the number 10 most expensive state in the nation.
So, my question is: has anyone else ever been in the position of having to attend something that is going to test both our ability to refrain from eye rolling and to keep from laughing out loud at what I know is going to be a childish display of ego. How did you manage to keep a straight face?
An update from the bald guy.
Well, the vehicle is pretty much a lost cause. Therefore, I am going to put the generous donations that you all have shared with us into getting another vehicle. It won't be anything like this one. It will probably be 20+ years old. But, whatever it ends up being, it will be better than something that does not go.
I also received my first bit of hate email. I am not sure what the deal is, but someone decided to send one with an insulting phrase in it. I was kind wondering if something like this was going to happen, as we have lurkers around here all the time and some of them are basically bastards who want to start trouble because they think they are 'screwing over the libs'.
Whatever, dude. Things are bad enough all around without their dumb asses trying to create problems because they find it funny.
I stand here with my hat in my hand.
Our vehicle has now decided to screw us over. It will need yet another transmission. We need this vehicle. We are suppose to be moving soon and we are already in dire straits because of this. Now that the vehicle has decided to screw us over, I do not know what to do. I am so concerned about my husband. He is stressed out enough over our situation anyway. Now this.
I told him I was a curse. I told him many times.
Please, if you can help with anything, please help me help my husband find some relief from this horrible life my curse keeps creating.
I hate doing this. I mean, I really hate asking for money from anyone. But, I am now out of options.
https://gofund.me/a5f8100f
Thank You In Advance for even reading this.
I don't know what to do now.
That vehicle that was starting to mess up has now decided to really do so. I barely made it home. This is going to ruin us. We do not have the finances to replace another transmission.
I did something I swore I would never do. I created a GoFundMe. I feel unclean and petty for doing it.
I do not know where to post such a thing so I can ask for some help. Is The Lounge the place to post something like this? Maybe General Discussion? I don't know how to ask for money. I don't usually do it. And certainly not in such an amount.
My husband is now severely upset and having to work and deal with this development. That makes me even more upset and anxious than I already was. I should not be surprised at this, though. I warned him that I was cursed when he proposed. He did not believe me.
I bet he does now. 
I cannot stop wondering why I am still around.
There is just no logical reason for it. It makes no sense whatsoever. I sit here alone every evening because my husband is at work doing something he does not like but we are not in a position to change anything and probably won't ever be. Now that the sociopolitical landscape is turning on people like myself and my husband, things will be even more unlikely to happen. Even being in a blue state is not going to help us.
Here I sit alone.
It is not by my choice. But, here I am. The car is on its last wheel, I am afraid. I am too broke to go anywhere or do anything. My husband is so stressed out. I do not know what to do about any of it. I can barely go from one floor to the other sometimes. I cannot wave my magic wand and make things better for him. I suck.
I guess that is why I am alone.
I apologize in advance to anyone who does not like this sentiment.
But, this is where I am these days. Nothing else is going to change my opinion or my outlook.
Until this happens, I don't see a lot of hope for this nation. Again... I apologize if it offends anyone.
Just wow.
So, I went to the doctor to see about a few things. I had three things I wanted to mention to him and ask about possible thoughts on what to do about any or all of them.
Number one: need to try for another appointment with another group because the one I was using is backed up for months. So far, none are covered by my insurance. Which means, no visit to a cardiologist any time soon.
Number two: Since I can no longer see a Chiropractor thanks to this rib issue, the next suggestion was physical therapy. Again, my insurance only covers some of that kind thing and I cannot afford to cover the rest. Not with a vehicle that is messing up and a husband who is really starting to worry me as far as his health is concerned. Not with a move coming up in the 12th most expensive city in the US. So, again, no go.
Number three: Started the ball on addressing this G.I. issue again, but I don't think it is covered by this insurance and therefore will have to be skipped as well.
Three issues and he was unable to do anything about any of them. Our healthcare system is so royally screwed up that I cannot get any help from the guy I should be able to. It is just a Ponzi scheme, moving me from the least expensive to the most. Personally I cannot fathom why I am bothering anyway. Between my inclination towards ending this failed existence and a healthcare system that is only concerned about you if you are wealthy, I do not stand a chance. And, thanks to upcoming... sociopolitical situations... I have less than a zero chance to even alleviate any suffering as we head forward. Hell, I expect to lose my meds before too long.
Happy New Year.
****UPDATE**** 01/03/2025
Thanks to everyone who responded to my angry rant. We will just have to do what we can. I just don't really have anything left in me. And, I am looking at maybe having to try and get some kind of stupid job to try and help us. I won't last a week in pretty much anything. If I don't aggravate one of the issues, I will end up damaging something or pissing off some asshat because he thinks his shit does not stink.
Appealing for help from the Fed is pointless. I doubt any of the program that denied me in the past will make it through the upcoming four years anyway. Which is a very scary proposition.
I guess I will also have to look into either selling or 'Goodwill'ing my tools and stuff. I cannot even close my dominant hand anymore, how am I going to work on a cabinet and make jewelry? Ironically, all of it might equal $250. They are decent tools but they are not name brand nor are they new. It amazes me that I thought I might start doing some restorations and things like that three years ago. Several health issues later, it looks like a pipe dream. Fuck it.
Sorry... just not feeling it right now...
I have something for my peoples here at the DU.
There is an artist whom I consider one of the best alive. He works in comics but does lots of other things as well. Feel free to check out his site. He is amazing.
He did this a few years ago... I love it so much...
Rest In Peace Good Sir. You earned it.
https://billsienkiewiczart.com
( I have a few of his posters framed in my house. They are mesmerizing. I also have many of his works in comics. For any who might be interested, I suggest one of the greatest comic stories I have ever read. Each page is a work of art. I mean... Frank Miller and Bill Seinkiewicz! WOW!)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Elektra:_Assassin
I hope everyone here in the forum has a nice New Year's Eve.
I will be hanging out here while my hubby retrieves the owner and his fiancé from the airport. (Flying in on New Year's Eve after dark. Having to drive across town to do this. 
)
I will be firing up the 'fireplace' shortly. I suspect that there will be some fireworks around. There usually are on this night. (Of course, the pond is usually frozen and they do it from the middle. Tonight, it is not frozen so it remains to be seen if they will even try.)
HUGS! to you all and let's send all the good vibes we have towards making 2025 a better year for us all!
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