Yesterday I spent over 5 hours with the eye doctors and learned that the huge blob obstructing almost all vision in my left eye is a bleed from wet macular degeneration.
I got my first injection into the retina and there are more to come.
This is a bad and possibly permanent condition and I'm working hard on making peace with it. Over time I think I'll adjust, but for now just "seeing" is pretty tough.

Some things had to be postponed or changed, and now I'm coming up on the July contest which I am to host, and I think that will be very hard for me.
The doctor says the improvement, if any, can take months. Surgery was nixed by the doctors at Duke who were consulted.

I am in possession of the theme for the new contest, and it's a really nice one. sinkingfeeling let me know it in a private message.

I hope someone will volunteer to take over for me and host the July contest. To that special person I will divulge the theme.
Please help me out.

"I need to drive my two-year-old to daycare tomorrow morning. To ensure we arrive alive, we won't take public transit (Oscar Grant). I removed all air fresheners from the vehicle and double-checked my registration status (Daunte Wright), and ensured my license plates were visible (Lt. Caron Nazario). I will be careful to follow all traffic rules (Philando Castille), signal every turn (Sandra Bland), keep the radio volume low (Jordan Davis), and won't stop at a fast food chain for a meal (Rayshard Brooks). I'm too afraid to pray (Rev. Clementa C. Pickney) so I just hope the car won't break down (Corey Jones).
When my wife picks him up at the end of the day, I'll remind her not to dance (Elijah McClain), stop to play in a park (Tamir Rice), patronize the local convenience store for snacks (Trayvon Martin), or walk around the neighborhood (Mike Brown). Once they are home, we won't stand in our backyard (Stephon Clark), eat ice cream on the couch (Botham Jean), or play any video games (Atatiana Jefferson).
After my wife and I tuck him into bed around 7:30pm, neither of us will leave the house to go to Walmart (John Crawford) or to the gym (Tshyrand Oates) or on a jog (Ahmaud Arbery). We won't even walk to see the birds (Christian Cooper). We'll just sit and try not to breathe (George Floyd) and not to sleep (Breonna Taylor)."
These are things white people simply do not have to think about."
-David Gray

Because we again have proven to be so much better than this